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Monday, December 9, 2013

My Next Life

As soon as i heard the words I was not expecting, my heart stopped and the tears flowed.  “You will never be able to bare children.”  i sat there and envisioned what life might be like for me.

This was the hardest thing for me to accept because I was raised a fearless lion, who has always made the impossible possible.  And for the first time, I felt I could not change something with my faith.

I learned to accept things the way they were because it seemed pointless to think about it.  Since that day, nothing has been impossible.  My life has been extraordinary.  The fortune I have built in my life has been phenomenal.  But still, there are days where I wonder what kind of mother I would have been…

The other day, I was talking with my mother and she said something so meaningful to me that I felt that same type of heart-stopping feeling and again, tears stained my face. She said, “All the experience gained from this life time will a good mother make you in the next”

My mother and I have come a long way in our relationship.  I treasure her for the great woman she doesn’t even know she is.

What a lovely thought for all women who cannot bare children.  We’re in training to be good mothers in our next life time.

Thanks Mom!